I’m Zuadrif
Hello, I'm Zuadrif.
I'm supposed to have been dead — i shot myself, and died —, but in an alternative universe, i survived and have become addicted to wanking and sex, and the occasional wanking and sex. Oh la.
And under a moniker, i write anonymously on blogspot and under the real name, i write nonsensical stuff at Firdauz takes 5.
Firdauz takes 5- Curiosity almost killed this cat August 28, 2010 Firdauz takes 5
Tag Archives: alternative universe
Talking to Abah
He was not a perfect man, his duty as a father — or a husband — wouldn’t even come close to being adequate. But he was, as always, the only one in my broken family, — a family spilt into … Continue reading
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Tagged almighty, alternative universe, particles, quantum, religion, science
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Ah, i should be sleeping
I hate it. (You shouldn’t read this sentence that fast). I hate it. (Pause, now taste what i say, slowly, don’t rush). I hate who i am. I hate what i do to my life. My life is a common … Continue reading
To Einstein, and Bohr, (and Lisa Randall) with love.
I, at any rate, am convinced that He(God) does not throw dice. – Einstein, on the Copenhagen Interpretation, and the weirdness of quantum. To which his friend, Neils Bohr replied; Einstein, don’t tell God what to do. I love you … Continue reading
Time Travelling Journal : Nov 18th, 2009. French-Swiss border.
They smashed the fledgling protons. For a minuscule second, there was a quick silence. Then, there was the most beautiful astronomical round of applause i’ve ever witnessed in my nomadic life. ALICE and ATLAS made the loudest sound. It lasted … Continue reading
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Tagged almighty, alternative universe, half-truth, matter, particles, quantum, religion, science
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Medical Journal : Nov 15th, 2009. My room.
I didn’t brush my teeth. I start my morning with a cigarette and listening to some old school hip-hop songs. God, forgive me.
Medical Journal : Nov 14th, 2009. Earth.
A month after today. Tomorrow, I will revolutionize the world. I will start with brushing my teeth in the morning. For precisely 10 minutes, that’s all it will take. For the next 24 months, I will find the perfect cure … Continue reading
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Tagged alternative universe, gila!, half-truth, merepek, particles, quantum, science
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Yenmay Phoa
is a girl when i first met i thought was beautiful like the sun, regardless if no one would share the same opinion as mine. Through time, i learnt that she isn’t so pretty. Quite ugly actually. And her mind … Continue reading
If i were a neutrino,
and i could pass through everything at the speed of light, i would stop in at your heart and break it, i would stop in at your heart and break its wall and you would tell me to go away, … Continue reading
Big Bang
My heart grows bigger all of a sudden, like the big bang, it expands, creates more room for you and you. I love you, i didn’t write this, something suggested it but i love you, whoever you are, i love … Continue reading
Peluru
Perlukah lagi aku menulis, untuk jiwa-jiwa lapar, jiwa-jiwa jerangkung yang kurus berkulitkan tulang? Ah Dunia Satu Jiwa, aku sentiasa menulis untuk kamu. Yang laju, yang perlahan, yang kurang bersopan, yang kadang buat kamu tersenyum, yang selalu buat kamu mengelamun, entah … Continue reading
And
Upon monday; and how i have loved it — to have spent a relaxing monday like this in bed, trying to get into her pants and; kissing, and
Chapter 1 : Dry coffee
The coffee in Seramban tasted like charcoal with sugar, i drank and smiled the widest smile and was in that smile — both dark and wide, teeth stained with coffee, heart entertained with self-deprecating humor — that i complained about … Continue reading
Prologue :
Look at me now, where do i go after i swung by your heart and softened. Am i the cloudy drops of the weakened liquid — are you the mighty rainbow? Or do i catch your hand and jump and … Continue reading