Life begins at Firdauz takes 5.

2009 November 2
by Zuadrif

The first writing i’ve ever written on Firdauz takes 5 goes like this;

I am Firdauz.

My life is a tragicomedy, a dangerous brew of turmoil and violent conflict. Each laughter causes another tear. Each love, comes with a rejection.

Before i picked up this weapon, i was a lover. 8 years with a mixed punjabi-malay girl. Before i entered this combat zone, i was happier. And then one year with a girl whom i thought was a soul mate.

They say, life is a struggle. Being single, i have fought and lost to many battles. Heavens don’t shower me with love no more. Not like it used to, it’s always lacking real affections. Of course, there were sex and masturbation, expectations and frustrations, but this heart has too many scars.

I am Firdauz, was once a lover.

- I am Firdauz, was once a lover, by Firdauz.

I’m back writing at Firdauz takes 5. Where life is fragile and uncertain again. It lives.

For Quantum Magic, i dedicate it as a place to write science fiction, or anything that is less personal, or less fragile. For happy moments need to die.

4 Responses leave one →
  1. November 2, 2009

    goddamn just write at one place once and for all! cis hehe

  2. Zuadrif permalink*
    November 2, 2009

    sorry for the inconvenience, wish i could blog at just one place, but i kinda could not

    =(

    teruk right! but i feel much better when i could leisurely write in 2 different blogs.

    makes me feel as if at last i could have some freedom and finally could enjoy not being care about things too much

    or care about blogs too much

  3. November 4, 2009

    I actually love it when you wrote how life is fragile and uncertain. because it is.

  4. November 15, 2009

    Ganbateh man!

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